by Kellye BrittonStart…Again.
First, set the tone. I like to read to a tune or two…sometimes it’s chakra frequencies, other times it’s TI, sometimes it’s Anita Baker. For this post, it’s:
“Start Again” – to some may imply constant failure, inconsistency, a need to keep starting — but, I see it as a charge to keep in mind that today is “new.” It’s today’s first time and I am required to make this time count.
This phrase shifts perspective allowing me to see my tomorrow later and put my yesterday to rest in order to be present today.
This phrase is a mandate to pick up what I may have put down due to fear. It tells me that enough-ness is a myth, intelligences are many, and the use of knowledge creates wisdom. It reminds me that one doesn’t have experience until they do and that I can study life or live it to get it.
This phrase breeds confidence — confirmation that I am in control of at least this part…and that is a piece of power that I need in a world we cannot control. This isn’t a self-aggrandizing confidence, but one of quiet assurance, one that differentiates narcissism and martyrdom. It is balance on the scale of “self.” It is autonomy in practice.
This phrase beckons me to persist, approaching each day with “new” eyes. I acknowledge yesterday because it happened and I was supposed to have learned something, but that something is meant to be used in service of today.
Some beginnings are unwelcome – like the morning after the death of a loved one, a relationship ends, a life-changing diagnosis, or the loss of a ton of money. But, I have learned that even in those mornings this phrase is the promise of commencement — the end and the beginning — which are always present at once.
While this phrase tells me that a reset isn’t possible, it says to me that “GOING FORWARD” is an option. It doesn’t say redo, repeat, or recreate. It says START, which is to begin, initiate, launch, or originate ONCE MORE.
There are a million ways this could not have been the case, which breeds gratitude for this grace and appreciation of time and for time.
So, we say “when you know better, you do better” (Maya Angelou) — so, now that you know… 👀